Still my Beautiful Disaster

It has been a really tough day. I just got off the phone with the vet and got confirmation of his earlier suspicions. Not only is there significant infection in the bone, but also loss of bone density in his jaw. Surgery will be a big project and the after care an even bigger project. It would require the removal of problematic bone tissue and it cannot be closed surgically. Instead it must heal from the inside out. As if the news isn't hard enough, I also got a visit from BLM at my ranch today. They offered to take my horse back.

It is my responsibility to do the best thing for my horse. I don't yet know what that is, but I will find out. I want to get the x-rays sent over to a surgical center for an evaluation of the exact procedure needed and his prognosis. It will be at that point I can decide what to do for my little Tornado. But an educated decision is critical.

I am feeling really overwhelmed by all the things going on. He really is my beautiful disaster. My intention is to adopt him at the Mustang Makeover and raise the funds to have his surgery done. I am hopeful that we can raise the money and give him the care he desperately needs. If surgery will help him and he has a good prognosis then we will do it. If surgery will cause him more harm than good I still want to adopt him. I will do the best I can with what I've got. At the end of the day if I have given him my best I have to accept whatever the outcome may be. Even if that means to love him well and say goodbye. But for now we will move forward and pray for the best.